So I've just sat at my computer with the view to blog about periods (don't get grossed out, we can talk about them) but I saw a comment on Twitter about
that Zalfie announcement and I kind of just want to pour my heart out about big bloggers/youtubers who actually get offered all kinds of unbelievable opportunities.
I'd be a hypocrite if I said I wasn't jealous of the fact Zalfie's living room is probably the size of my entire teeny tiny one bedroomed house. I'd be a hypocrite if I said that I've never sat at my desk of my 9-5 job and dreamt of being a full time blogger because obviously they have it easy, don't they and that's like my DREAM?! I'd be a hypocrite if I said I hadn't secretly disliked a Youtube video purely out of spite/jealousy...yes I'm serious but honestly, it actually made me feel like the devil!
Why wouldn't I want to be Zoe Sugg?! ERM HELLO?! I'd get to see my face in magazines, photos of me plastered all over the entire country, my own range of actual beauty products that people actually buy with their own money, a waxwork of erm, me and a massive house with a perfect boyfriend and cute little dog. But then I start to look into it a little deeper, I get to go home at the end of every working day and sit on my sofa with my hair in a bun with no makeup on doing whatever the hell I like. Zoe's job is constant, non-stop, every single hour of every single day is a working day. Imagine feeling ill or desperately wanting to go to a party but you can't because you HAVE to upload a video to meet a deadline/please your fans. Imagine waking up teary in the morning, not feeling mentally as strong as you usually are and having to read thousands of vile comments about you? Imagine going in to your garden and seeing your fans peering over your garden wall or better still, your fans actually ringing your doorbell and constantly tweeting you for photos? I'm not sure I want to be Zoe anymore.
What I'm trying to say is we only see the glossy side of people's lives. People show what they want you to see. They're not going to show themselves having a massive argument with their boyfriend, showing you how they pick their spots until they bleed, how they've cried non stop all day because life is just so overwhelming at times. Just like we don't declare how we put a filter on our selfies to make ourselves look more glowing, how we crop that pile of dirty clothes and chocolate wrapper out of our perfectly crisp, white, insanely clean instagram shot, how we just tweeted about that green super healthy smoothie we just demolished but forget to mention about the Twix you're munching on now.
I'm super super super in awe of Youtubers/Bloggers who get offered all sorts of opportunities. It makes me feel happy that the internet is SO impressionable, more impressionable than we could even believe. It makes me feel insanely proud, as a blogger, that waxworks and books and makeup ranges are actually achievable for people who started making videos/writing posts on their crummy old computer in their bedroom. I think people who put in serious amounts of effort, people who have even saved teenagers lives through their online presence are getting rewarded for the amount of work they put in. I've seen so many tweets about celebrities that deserve waxworks/books etc more than '#teaminternet' and honestly, it makes me feel sad. Why does anyone deserve anything more than anyone else?!
I read a quote a couple of months ago that I will remember for the rest of my life.
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I'm not interested in competing with anyone. I hope we all make it."
I can hand on my heart say that I truly do hope we all make it, whatever counts as your 'making it', I hope you get it. Feeling bitter about something only makes me feel guilty so why can't I just be happy and supportive to other bloggers/youtubers who are tons more successful than me?! I genuinely think the whole blogging community would be a much happier place if we all embraced this quote.
This post is purely just my opinion. I know not everyone thinks the same as me because the world would be a much more boring place if they did! I'm not preaching to anybody but I just wanted to write down how I feel.
What are your thoughts on bloggers/youtubers who are given crazily big opportunities?! Lets interact! <3